Cataclysm -- When you try to die and don't -- Psych-ward sojourn -- What, me depressed? -- When diagnosis makes you crazy -- Killing yourself is tougher than you'd think -- Know thine enemy -- Checking boxes -- Suicide blues -- Getting in trouble -- A pill-popping parade -- Good noticing! -- Zapping, shocking, and burning your brain into submission -- Brainiacs -- A dry pharma pipeline -- Old illness, new tricks : the electrode in your brain -- Old illness, new tricks : from psychedelics to smartphones -- Stigma and related bullshit -- Through the cracks -- Mental health is for rich people -- Trying to heal the littlest minds -- "More children do not have to die" -- Race as barrier -- Who you gonna call? -- How to talk about what we talk about when we talk about wanting to die -- Certifiable -- Trust issues -- First person afterword.